Warning! Positive confessions of Faith & blogs saying the same can result in chicken pox! This is what has seemed to be the case as I'm now just getting over the pox. boy! have I been rough with it as well... fevers, light headedness, dizziness  & of course the dreaded spots. I first thought I had some virus in my inner ears 'cos of the dizziness & lightheaded & when the headache came & never left I realised some virus was really attacking my head from all directions from my painful neck up. I went to the docs & he jsut said I have a virus.. drink lots, take some Ibuprofen & rest up. The next morning I woke up... I saw i was covered in spots. I know how I came into  getting the pox but I won't go into that 'cos that makes me a lil cross. The timing of it coming out though & certain situations & events all happening at the time is a sure sign of it being no coincidence. The devil really set out to attack me. But I believe God has been in the center of if. Not quite sure for all the whys etc but I know it's been for a reason. God don't just let things happen for no reason to His children.

O give thanks unto the Lord call upon his name: make known his deeds among the people.

Sing unto him, sing psalms unto him: talk ye of all his wondrous works.

Glory ye in his holy name: let the heart of them rejoice that seek the Lord.

Seek the Lord, and his strength: seek his face evermore.

Remember his marvellous works that he hath done; his wonders, and the judgments of his mouth;

O ye seed of Abraham his servant, ye children of Jacob his chosen.

He is the Lord our God:

Psalm 105:1-7a

I haven't been keeping up with this blog for a while now due to various reasons & things that have been going on in my life. Many a time I have intended to blog but just lacked that inspiration or motivation to do so. It made me wonder if I should continue to blog or not but I didn't have a real desire to stop, so I just put it down to what I've jsut said. OK, I'm waffling again...

So, what has been going on in the life of Paul? Not a lot actually. I had a very nice christmas time with my mother, got to spend some time with my grandperents as well, which was very nice, Spent New Years Eve at my apartment with some friends from church, We had a chinese meal feast, played some games, sang some hymns & prayed out the old year & prayed for the new year ahead. It was a very blessed evening actually I think.

I have a head full of decisions to make about my life & where It's heading. Some important things that I have asked the Lord to show me His Perfect Will & other trivia stuff like should I go to Tuscany for my holiday this year. It is makin me a lil dizzy actually. It seems I have so much to think about & try to sort out. I'm having trouble settling my mind & just trusting in The Lord to lead me into right decisions and just trying to take one step at a time.

I decided not to really make any new years resolutions this year as such. but having reflected on 2005  with my own personal thoughts from my heart and some questions I've been asked by both christian & non christian people about my life like.. do you want to get married? what are your ambitions? Do you think you'll do after you stop caring for bro Samuel, my pastor? what do you see yourself doing in 10yrs time, why don't you buy your own place instead of renting? and so forth. My answers are always the same ... Yes, I'd like to get married to a godly sister & have a familly only if its according to God's Perfect Will for me to marry ( I struggled many years to accapt if i wansn't to marry I'd be happily single if it was God's Will for me), My ambition or goal is to make the adoption to become a manifested son of God and to be caught up in the air to meet my Lord at the end of the rapture,  I know I am in God's Perfect Will for now as Samuel's carer & if hes healed or I am called not to care for him anymore. I know because I have been faithful in my duty doing God's Will. God will provide for me some other work to do, I don't think I will be here in 10yrs time. I'd like to believe the rapture would of happened  by then. I do personally see the point of having the headache of getting a morgage & having to spend out so much money on a  house when I don't believe I'll be there to see the house paid off & truly mine. It is much easier to rent for now & have minimum payments to make on my wages. I truly believe from my heart that my answers are the true right answers. Yet also at the same time I struggle not to yearn for a godly sister to fall in love with and to marry. Its been told me that the greatest gift outside salvations is a godly wife. I am Thankful for my salvation but I can't help wanting that other gift as well.  I struggle within myself at times not to look to material things & possessions. I have evan had to repent of envying others as they seem to prosper in material wealth etc.  I sometimes find myself to be content working long nights caring for Samuel. I know a lot of these struggles come not from my spiritual inner man but from my old fleshly wordly nature that hankers after such things.

 So.. having said all that I have purposed in my heart with a fervent resolve to strengthen what I have confesssed, believe & try to live according to my profession of Faith. When Jesus was preaching the Beatitudes on the sermon on the mount, as it's commonly called. Jesus also teaches us  But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. Matthew 6:33-34.  I really have purposed in my heart to seek my Gods kingdom & His righteousnes first. I do truly believe His Word & do believe all that I have need of God will supply me throughout the coming year. A litt,e earlier when Jesus is preaches He also teaches me to Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. Matthew 6:19-21. Paul also writes something similar.. If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.   Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth. For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God. Colossians 3:1-3.  This is what I truly want. My home here on earth is temporal & everything that I have is. I truly desire to have my treasures in heaven where my Eternal home is. I am now disciplining my thoughts not torwards earthly things but now towards things above. I might not fully understand what those treasures are but I'm promised them & they are mine my Faith.

another thing I have purposed in my heart to fulfull in 2006 is to get myself ready for the rapture & the Lambs marrage supper. I believe I am part of the Bride of Christ and I believe I am to prepare myself for the marrage of the Lamb. Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to him: for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife hath made herself ready. Rev 19:7. It is my responsability alone to see that I am ready for that great and wonderful marrage day. Paul writes in the book of Ephesisans of the great mystery concerning Christ and His Church. Paul uses the illustration of a godly marrage & how the Husband & wife should treat and respect each other. Paul writes this..    Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it; That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word, That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. Ephesians 5:25-27. To me that means by the Word of God I am to purge and clense my life till so that I am without "spot or wrinkle" Now, I know I cannot do this on my own or in my own strength so I must do as Paul writes in in the book of Romans. And that, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep: for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying. But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof. Romans 13:11-14. God is not only showing me the only way to be without "spot or wrinke"  is to dress my myself in The Word & put on the Lord Jesus Christ, who was Perfect before man & God. God is also warning & telling me in Love to put away from me things that I struggle with & that feed my fleshly old nature. I could add in a whole more scriptures to show how God is telling me to be prepared and ready. I could of basically just said my desires for 2006 was that I could totally Live in The Spirit, Walk in The Spirit, Be led of The Spirit into God's Perfect Will for me, So, I could walk totally by faith know I was in His Will for me, For that is my True heart's desire but I  felt I needed to express what I did.

This has a been a long blog and could be seen as a bit preachy my some. But this blog was for my own personal benefit more than anything to reinforce what I have set out to achieve, with God's Help, during the coming year. So, if your a christian who happens to read this or one of my few christian friends that I know read my blogs occasionaly. Please pray for me. That as I endeavour to fulfill the desires of my heart no matter what the devil puts in my way this year to try and hinder me. I Will be Victorious & the Overcomer I desire to be by Faith in  Christ Jesus that strengthens me. Amen.

1.    hosiotes - piety towards God, fidelity in observing the obligations of piety, holiness.
2.   hagiasmos  - consecration, purification, sanctification of heart and life.

From these 2 words I can see clearly what God wants to do in my life next to develop my character & nature to become more Christ like. Going through all the scriptures that use these words.The Holy Spirit brought out one Key Word to sum them all up & that word is Purity. God is again answering a prayer when I ask Him daily to purge me throughly of any uncleansiness or wickedness in me. So, sum all this up God is show me through His Holy Spirit that He is truly doing a cleansing in my life & my fleshly nature is reacting to this which has caused me to be unsettled & distracted, Which takes us back to the beginning of my blog where I stated I had been preoccupied.

I've again felt like I've rambled too much & not come across very well, to you, the reader,I apologise for.

During my absence of blogs I haven't really been up to much really. Apart from going to a believers conference in Glasgow, Scotland.my friend & dear brother in Christ, Derek & I had a good little road trip to the conference/ minsisters meetings.  I was truly Blessed during the meetings. The thrust of the 3 meetings was identifying with a character in the Bible that is going through the same struggles as you & seeing what decisions & choices they made, having the right spiritual discernment to know Gods Perfect will for you & knowing how to discern Gods perfect will for us & nor going into His permissive will.I think all 3 messages all tied so perfectly it was if the Holy Spirit used the ministers preaching to just preach one message in 3 parts. A real Blessing.

Another thing that I've done is finally get around to start to do my blog on the Zimbabwe trip in June. 3 months late but better late than never, eh? The website address for that is.. http://spaces.msn.com/members/Zimbawetrip/

I'll be here....http://spaces.msn.com/members/Zimbawetrip for the next 3 weeks!

Well, it's my last night before we fly off to Zimbawe. Thank The Lord, I managed to arrange to have tonight off from work to rest & get ready for our trip. I'm having to work tomorrow night on the flight caring for Samuel but after that have 4 nights off. Peter & I are working a 4 night on/off shift.  I've almost packed all my stuff that I need. I'm taking more gadgets n things more than anything else it seems. Not only am I taking my laptop, digital camera, mp3 player but everything else that comes with that. I mentiond in a previous blog about my camera being send back to Nikon to get checked over & being originally told I'd have back on the 7th. Today i was told I'd get it back by the weekend. I'm still believing if it comes in tomorrow morning it's God's Will for me to take my main camera & lenses but if I don't arrive back tomorow morning it's Gods Will for me not to take it for some reason. So, I am at peace about the whole thing. I'm sure my little Canon IXUS 40 will be sufficent for photos at least.

For some reason I decided to do a seperate blog for my time in Zimbawe. Lord Willing, I hope to be able to update it everynight some how or at least every other night. I'm hoping the Brother & his family we're staying with has a pc & internet conncetion at thier home or there is a internet cafe within reasonable distance to travel. The addy for my Zimbawe blog is.. http://spaces.msn.com/members/Zimbawetrip/

Tonight I watched a awesome DVD called The Privileged Planet, it was about how that this planet is so unique in our universe & that all the elements for life are exclusively are only found on this planet & evan the earths location is so perfect that it is the only place to truly observe our universe & space etc. Oh, I could say so much as I was truly blessed & marvelled at how wonderful a creator my God is. There is  a website where you can order it from & other interesting DVDs from. The address is http://www.illustramedia.com/  I Highly recommend The Privileged Planet even to those that have a passing interest in astrology n all things spacey.

A few blogs ago I was left a comment by  dantereck, He asked this.." 1 if your not allowed to kill what was up with the crusades and the inquisition ?"
2 Hey if Christ did realy die for our sins then realy we are living sinless lives and it dont matter what we do ?" I said I would answer in case he came back & so tryin' to keep to my word, I will briefly because such questions could have big answers. OK, heres  my attempt to reply briefly.

1a Thou shalt not kill. Exodus 20:13. The word Kill in the original hebrew is ratsach which means to murder, slay, premeditated killing among other variations of these phrases. So, basically it translates Thou Shalt not murder. 1bHistory reveals that both the crusades and the inquisition  was started by man under the name and guise of religion & allegedly in the name of God. Both was instigated by the mother of all man made religions the roman catholic church. So, it was of man & not ordained of God because in both instances they are unscriptual for christians to do.

2. First one has to accept Lord Jesus Christ died for our sins & one must confess they are a sinner & that they need forgiveness of sins & that Lord Jesus Christ is thier God and saviour. We must then apply His blood to cover our sins. True, Christ paid the price of sin once & for all but because we have still a sinful fleshly nature & we still backslide into unbelief and sin we must continually seek the forgiveness of sins  until Lord Jesus Christ comes back for His Bride (true church) & we get a sinless new body & nature. So, we need to believe by faith that  Christ paid the price of sin on the cross & seek His forgiveness through prayer. I don't feel I've done justice to those questions but if one wants to seek out the answers themselves I'd like to finish on a scripture. But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. Hebrews 11:6. Give it a try! whats to lose??

I've gotten quite slack with this blog. I thought I'd be able to keep this blog up almost every night but I've gotten to be pretty lazy & whilst at work I've been tired a lot & not been inspired.

Well, it's 3 days till Samuel, Peter & I go to Zimbawe to do the Lords work. I'm planning on writing a seperate blog of our trip. I hope to update it every day but I'm not sure if the people we're staying with have the internet.  If not I'm hoping to go to a cyber-cafe to write my blog. Also hopefully that will get me back into a blogging routine for when I'm back home

I was kinda disappointed this week. I had to send of my Nikon D70 to Nikon to sort out why my new Memory card wouldn't format. I sent it the other week & was told a week to 2 weeks it would take to sort it out but the camera shop told me I'd get my camera back on the 7th June. I'm led to believe that it wasn't meant to be for me to take all my camera stuff 'cos I'd been praying that my camera would get back in time. I'm not too upset as I believe it was for a reason & at least I've got my little Canon IXUS camera to take with me. I'll not be able to do the photograhy I wanted but at least I can take some photos. Another thing is I'll have one less bag to carry with all my camera stuff in it.

Today was a good day. Went to my folks place to see my footie team win the championship play offs & get back into the premiership. I also got to enjoy one of my fave meals...Roast lamb dinner, lots of slices of fresh welsh lamb, mint sauce, lots of veggies & roast potatoes yummy!

dantereck, Dunno if you'll come back to my blog but I'll answer your 2 questions by wednesday.

Having a little time to kill before I go over to my folks place to watch the F.A Cup final( Our modest version of superbowl of proper football, for my american readers) this afternoon. I decided to write up a lil follow up blog to contentment. I forgot to add what I believe is a very important thought. To achieve true happiness & contentment in this life is very simple... Just to be content with what you have. If your constantly striving to be keeping up with everyone else you'll never be content or happy. Someone else will always have more money than you, someone will always have a bigger better faster smaller newer version of whatever. So, why compete? Take stock with what you do have & be content. The old proverb of 'The best things in life are free' is very true. Christian or not it cannot be denied that you can't buy  a Loving family, True Friendships, Real Love & all the blessings that go with those. I am very Blessed with a small family that loves me, my family in Christ & a handful of true & dear friends both christians & non believers. To my thinking that makes me rich in this life. It makes me content & Happy. The material things I have are a small bonus that I do appriciate though.

Bit of a rambling lil blog but I think I've put my point of view over well enough!?

In my next blog I'm planning to answer & address the most frequent comment & question that gets asked in my blog. I've been thinking much on this & feel inspired enough to answer this big question it seems! untill then.... Keep  'cos Jesus Love You!!.

Been a bit lazy with this blog thing. Still have some inspired thoughts( I believe) to share but been too lazy to get 'em out. I've actually been under attack over the last week and have had some trials but that means I'm doing something right for a change for the devil to get on my case. When he leaves me alone I begin to worry & get down to prayer to see where I'm slipping & causing the devil to be content with my state of affiars.

One of the things I've been upto recently is preparing for the trip to Zimbawe. I've had to go to the docs for a few shots against some diseases etc. Sorting out what I am to wear & pack n all that goes with travelling. Time is goin pretty fast it seems 'cos it's 2 weeks today until we travel!

Samuels internet connection was down but if it's up n running tonight I plan to blog again tonight & try to get back into the swing of this blog thang.

After writing in a blog or 2 ago that I'd kinda been backslidden & in a slump. The Lord has been really gracious to me & lifted me up again. I really hate it when as a christian I go through little patches of it seeming & feeling like  I'm just going through the motions of a christian life & not actually living The Life. But I know it's not about feelings but Faith. Anyways, Tonight I was really Blessed &refreshed in the spirit.. I'd stopped listening to sermons by Bro. Branham for a few weeks in my slump etc. And tonight I got my act together again & made a effort to listen to part of a message. It was titled ' Let Your Light Shine before men' I don't think I'd listened to that message before but The Lord Really spoke to me through it. It tied up with some scriptures I'd been praying over in colossians & asking The Lord to really bring out this portion of His Word in my life & that I would fulfill it in my walk by His Strength & Grace. I am also constantly praying for revelation & the ability to live it. (My next blog will be about revelation.)

the main thrust of my prayers this week as I have been reading the book of Colossians has been this...

That Lord  I might be filled with the knowledge of You Will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding; That I might walk worthy of You Lord unto all pleasing, being fruitful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of you my God; Strengthened with all might, according to Your glorious power, unto all patience and longsuffering with joyfulness; Giving thanks unto you Father, which hath made me meet to be partaker of the inheritance of the saints in light: Who hath delivered me from the power of darkness, and hath translated me into the kingdom of his dear Son: In whom I have redemption through his blood, even the forgiveness of sins: And that I was sometime alienated and a enemy in my mind by wicked works, yet now hath He reconciled  In the body of his flesh through death, to present me holy and unblameable and unreproveable in His sight: And Lord Help  me to continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel, which I have heard, and which was preached to every creature which is under heavenAnd Heavenly Father, as I have therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord,  help me to so walki n Him: Rooted and built up in him, and stablished in the faith, as I have been taught, abounding therein with thanksgiving. And Finally Lord, I pray Let my speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that I may know how ye ought to answer every man. Amen.

Colossians. 1:9-14, 21-23, 2:6-7, 4:6

Another thing that has blessed me this week is that I bought 2 tickets to fly to Arizona in Oct. My friend & dear bro, Dave & I are gonna drive & explore some of the Grand Canyon & other parts of Arizona for a few weeks. I cant wait as I've wanted to see the Grand Canyon for a few years now but allowed silly other wants to get in the way & stop me. I had prayed about going to Arizona for a while if it was The Lords Will for me to go or not & I've always had a peace about it & felt led to go but I was on the verge of putting it off as I didn't wanna drive around Arizona alone but bro Peter from my church suggested I ask Dave, if he would wanna go. So, I did & Dave prayed about it & got a peace about it too. So...Of we go on the 10th Oct. Yayy! I really hope to take some really good photos while I'm over there as well.I know my camera will be working overtime. I'm glad I got a good digital camera with 2 large memory cards or I'd have to spend a small fortune on rolls of films & getting them devolped.

Today is Mothers Day in the USA. I don't know why  over here in the UK we celebrate Mothering Sunday on 6th March & today in the US. Anyways, I never got around to doing a Mothers Day blog back in March so I decided to do one today. I was very Blessed & privilledged to have had an adopted spiritual 'Mom in Christ', sis. Patricia, which sadly for those she left behind went to be with the Lord on the 3rd Nov. 2004. So, in my dear sisters & momma in Christ memory & to my own Dear Precious Mother about whom I can truly say God indeed Blessed me with a mother like my dear ole mum. I'm dedicating this blog to.

I love you Mum Very Much & Thanks For ALL that you do for me & I Miss you a lot sis. Patricia & your often on my mind.

Medals For Mothers.

I dreamed mother walked up the heavenly stairs
And medals for mothers were given up there
They mentioned the million things mom did for me
Things I took for granted and never could see

Chorus:
If there's medals for mothers
For all of the deeds they have done
If there's medals for mothers
Mama you'll win everyone

A medal of honor was pinned on her there
A medal for patience and kind loving care
A medal for duty she won up above
But the biggest of all was the one for her love

Repeat Chorus

lyrics by the Wilburn Bros.

Alas I'm not very poetical These days so I decided to use the lyrics to a song off a  CD called In His Time by The Rochesters  as lil something for Mothers Day.

Man, I'm getting so behind in this blog thing. I get ideas & inspirations but just can't be bothered to get 'em down.

I'm so outta of bloggin I dunno where to start now. To get me back into bloggin mode I think I'll share some of my Yayys & grrrrrs over the last week or so..

Grrrrrrs.

Grrrr @ Tiscali for my internet connection keep getting disconnected.

Grrrr @ Tiscali for not warning me that I might be out of range for 2.3mbps on my ADSL broadband connection.

Grrr @ the other things I grrrr'd @ but can't remember what they are now!

Yayys!

Yayy @ Mr BT engineer fixing my broadband connection problem

Yayy @ me gettin my check for £3400 from my Housing Assoc.

Yayy @ paying off all my debts & for being out of debt for 5 mins

Yayy @ finally getting that MP3 player I've wanted for a while.

Yayy @ all the things I've yayy'd @ but can't remember what they are now!